Hahaha hi again :) im too free~ thats y i keep updating my blog XD
isn't it a good news? XD
haihh .. i rather choose that it was a dream rather than in reality ... i know i dun have any chance already la T_T
i wish i wish i wish ... :'(
joanne: haihhh .. let's together wish =X
today went to studio and but didnt learn anything becoz class actually canceled XD
fun dancing randomly! boys danced at one side while girls danced at another side.. i went to the boys side to learn their steps too! and then back to girls' side.. hehehe luv that feeling !Made some Sushi for them also .. ^^ it may look bad and taste abit weird.. but it's our effort :) haha i think i am too obssessed to this group la haha because it's fun..! even better than the past ones..
the thing is...
*i dun like sitting with a group of people who always gossip... not to say i dun gossip , yes i DO but i just dun gossip everytime, we're in a group like some of them do...
i just can't stand that when i sit in the group ... everyone started gossiping non stop ...
and the problem is...
*i dun like people looking with the eyes as if u're saying " u're so stupid, u'll never win me, i wont let u beat me, i'll beat u in EVERYTHING" - is this the way friends treat each other? can't u just stop "deng" people with ur scary eyes? and please!stop that habit...
*sumtimes people are too fake, they always act infront of u that they're so good and yet their acting are so fake... they talk nicely infront of u ... and they start gossiping behind ur back .. oh it depends, they will gossip the person who is not there...
* can friends check first before scolding people? im stil hurt becoz few years back i suddenly got scolded for nothing... and i didnt say anything because i know..... my chinese is not gud.. i cant fight back !...they tot they really did the right thing... but it really hurt me and it left a deep scar in my heart which makes reminds me that i cant really rely on u guys, u made me lost confidence in u guys and u guys are not trustworthy anymore,... its hard for the cuts and scars to dissapear :( i still can feel it!
*why can't i get a chance to speak? people say i am a listener because i always dun get a chance to speak ... but do u noe... i love to talk and enjoy with u guys ... i just dun get a chance ... unlike now... i can talk as i like ,mixing with my current friends... but when i dun talk .... people start to ask why don't i talk ... but do u give me a chance to speak at the first place???! all my ideas are also OUT... no actually i dun even have a chance to voice out my ideas... yes sometimes i do ... but did anyone seriously discuss about my ideas?my ideas were like in ur ears for few seconds then it flew away... == then u guys started to change topic...
*always force people to do what they dont want.... i DONT want... ! sometimes i make excuses because i dun want u guys to be hurt .. if i say "I DONT WANT" will u guys feel uncomfortable? sometimes i do say yes eventhough i dun wan ... just because i xin luan .. :(
now i know im abit too much &...
people will start to say that im so irresponsible as a friend, a bad friend... but try to think.. who made this? im not pushing all the fault to u .. u can blame me also... i have nothing to say~
all i want is just some caring friends .. not gossiping, scolding for nothing, sharing, true friends...but now its too late... i lost my confidence in u ... ==
i kept all this feelings since few years back ... volcano finally errupted.. haha
i dun care what they say anymore ... i am who i am ... i do what i want and i dont do what i dont want :D
well ... now im not angry but im just dissapointed... we're good friends for so many years, don't u know what i need? no u don't, because u didnt even care about it... u just love to talk, laugh , shout and leave me behind! YESH im very sensitive. :\ i know that.. i know u guys will surely talk about it after reading this blog... i knew something big will happen .. it's okay... again- i am who i am... i like the way i do now....
anyway.. this is also a lesson for me to stay away from the word "good friends" it will only create conflicts!
I hope nothing happen after viewing this post... i hope what i need are written above..
hahaha THIS
IS NOT AN EMO POST :)
im not sad to post this... i feel betterrrrrrr and stress released now...
c ya!
3.50 am ><
Hello, my name is Elaine Thang Shi Teng: 19years & Bbloodtype. Born and raised in lovely Shah Alam, Malaysia(therefore I speak English, Chinese, and Malay). I have a passion for animals that drives me to study Executive Diploma in Pet Grooming and Management and Veterinary course.I go for passion & dream and all i want to do is to help the poor animals. I am an easy going and happy go lucky person who actually put friends and family at the first priority before me. That's is maybe why i expect more from the others. I worked as a freelance dancer for a part time living and as my best hobby. I love eating.I hardly buy things for myself to save money but i can spend alot only on food when my cravings come. That's is all about me. If you want to know more about me, feel free to drop by my blog for updates :D 
